Why do I doubt?

When most people bring up adoption, finances are always brought up as well. Adoption is EXPENSIVE. There no other way to say it. We have heard countless adoption stories of how the Lord provided the perfect amount of money for people at just the right time. Hearing these stories makes me happy for these people that the Lord provided for them, but I doubted that something like that would happen to us. Sure, maybe we would be given money...but the PERFECT amount and the PERFECT time? Right. Well...it DID happen...to US! Why do I doubt that my God who loves me would choose to bless me in that way? We had to write a check this month for $5000. And yes...a check...no credit cards. We were scraping it together...literally. And stalling for as long as possible to send in the money. We really needed around $1500.

Brian went to the mailbox and started opening the mail (I was at my parents with the boys). He opened a card from a longtime friend of mine. A friend that I had recently been in contact with again, but really had not stayed in touch with for the past 10 years or so. This friend is newly married and I am sure could think of a million ways to spend their money. But the Lord prompted her and her husband to give...and they listened. In the mail, was a check for $1500. Brian called me with tears in his eyes (a rare occurrence) and told me. I was speechless, shaking, and in shock. That was the exact amount we needed! I didn't even have this friend's phone number to thank her "in person".  I seriously was going to have to send an email to thank someone who just blessed us like that?! When I tried to put into words what we were feeling...they were of course insufficient. But her words to me, have stuck like glue..... "No words are needed. It's all God's money anyways".   It is ALL His! The $30,000 we are going to spend to give an orphan a home....its GOD's....and THIS is how he has told us to use HIS money. Why would we choose to spend that amount of money on a child, when we can have biological children? Because one of God's dearly loved children is halfway across the world and has no one to love her....and He has asked us to go get her. We are so humbled and honored that Christ would call us to this great journey.