We are still waiting on being submitted to court. We heard from the director of our agency last week that due to an error in our paperwork, it would be a couple more weeks until our paperwork was ready to be submitted. That is all I know.
I dont know the exact day our paperwork will be submitted and I dont know if we will get to go to court before the courts close for rainy season. If the courts close before we get a court date then we will have to wait until early october-ish to go see our girl. I have no control over this, and I have no way of knowing what the next few weeks are going to hold.
But the Lord knows...and He is sovereign in it all! I DO know that he has given me a CRAZY peace about all of this. It is definitely a "peace that passing all understanding". I know this Peace is from the Lord.....because this is NOT ME.
I am a pessimist by nature.....not because I always believe something bad will happen, but just because I like to prepare myself:) "I" would have started preparing myself weeks ago to not go see our girl until October, "just in case" that is what happened. "I" would be a nervous wreck every time I thought about the court deadline approaching. "I" would be checking my email every second of every day waiting for some news (Well, maybe I am doing that....but not with fear in my heart).
The Lord has been SO GRACIOUS to me! I know myself, and I know that the Jana a few months ago would be living in fear, and my anxiety would have overtaken me by now. The Lord is doing such an amazing work in my heart through this. HE'S GOT THIS! I know that! I know that whatever happens in the next few weeks will not crush me or destroy me. I am praying expectantly and I know the Lord wants to see my faith. I can literally feel His loving arms around me as I am waiting. His peace is so tangible to me right now! It is only by His GRACE that I am not living in FEAR!
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